I am so not ready to leave Singapore for my studies. Some part of me just want to leave so so so badly. But when i think that i have to do be independent, washing my clothing, cooking my own meals, changing bedsheets etc, i just want to stay in Singapore... I know that someday i need to be independent..So why not i will just learn to be independent now. Leaving for my education, i know i have to sacrifice. No more fooling around and i need to seriously study. It is like a 1 way ticket for me. I cannot fail there. I have nothing to fall back on, all i have is my O level cert. So i will need to succeed.... I know i have to think about the negative consequences.... what if i can't make it? I know i should leave when i completed my poly... but..... I wanted to start afresh.... Maybe i will even cry everyday when I'm there because I will just miss my mum so badly, missing her food, missing her hugs....Even though my bro is there at NZ, i know he won't even care about me because he have his own studies... I am not ready to leave.... But since i've made up my mind.... I will work hard and try to survive there.... I just hope that i don't fail there...

rained @ 9:47 PM