Hello!
Its been a long time since I've has updated and thought why not.
A lot of things had happened within these few months. My grandaunt passed away after fighting with lung cancer on 10.10.17 and I didn't know until i came back to sg which was on nov 11.
My grandma passed away too on beginning of Feb. Hers was sudden, like from being admitted into hospital till death took 3 weeks but my grandaunt took 4 months?
Anyway, this is my last year in dunedin (I hope) and my motivation level has hit an all time low. My bro graduated so he's back to singapore. TBH if you asked me 2 years ago if i wanted to do postgraduate and apply for medicine or dentistry i would say i will but if you ask me now, NO I DO NOT WANT TO APPLY. If possible, i want to study at other country, but I will see where fate takes me to.

I signed up for malam malaysia chinese dance choreographer, been practicing dance most of the time instead of giving my 100% to studies which is bad I know. Passion is not going to feed you. These few days I have been experiencing mood swing and honestly, for the first time, i felt alone, lonely, sad. Wishing I had a boyfriend by my side. But then, if i could get thru this phase of my life, then I am guessing that the need for a boyfriend will reduce dramatically. I was in a "LDR" but that didnt last long and I am fine with it bcuz TBH I didn't felt the same with my previous "some r/s" with him.

I told myself, even if I were to look for a boyfriend, I will wait till I am back in singapore and even if my right one comes next year or the year after it's ok, i will leave everything to god i believe he know what's best for me.

So yeah, I NEED TO FIND MY MOTIVATION or else i'm really worried that i can't even graduate this year.

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