This is my last year here, and TBH I don't know if I should be feeling happy or sad. Happy because I can finally get out of this shitty place, sad because I'll miss my friends and my life over here. It's just that I'm so used to the life here that I don't know if I can adapt back at Singapore. I am feeling scared as well. I am uncertain of my own future. People have been asking me about my plans after my graduation, but I have been telling them it's unconfirmed. I have a few route that I have in mind but I am uncertain of which to take. Feeling so lost. Is it normal to be still feeling lost at 21YO. 

Malam malaysia is over, chinese dance choreographer was fun and I will definitely miss training days. I realised that I am getting older with my inflexibility and also I HAVE GROWN FATTER OMG. I need to stop eating as much.... 

Mum is coming over for my graduation and we will have a vacation at Australia for 2 weeks. At first, I didn't want to attend my graduation because I want to go back to Singapore ASAP but then I have been missing graduation since primary school so aiiii I need to attend at least once in my lifetime. Mama is coming over on the 21st Nov and then I will have a grad trip with friends either before 21st or after 21st. Graduation on 15th Dec so Australia from 16th to 31st Dec. Maybe will bring mum around NZ from 21st to 10th Dec? Will bring her to places where my bro didn't take her to. But i think mum been to lots of places in NZ already ahhahaha.